I wasn’t there at all. I saw your mouth moving. I heard words, but I wasn’t really there. They say you feel like you’re in a pit or that the ceiling is falling on top of you. That’s not the first thing I felt though. Those were reactions to what was happening. The first thing I felt is nothing at all. Time twisted, I felt my heart beating, and I could hear myself breathing, but my soul had taken a a step outside. And then all at once the falling ceiling and pit in my stomach caught up and panic began. I realize now that first feeling of nothing was clarity. I now know I can feel nothing at all about you. If I can feel that way once, I will be able to feel it again. And with time, I have.